somebody rip my heart out

the afterglow

Mon, 16 May 2005 02:14:37 GMT

hello all! and welcome to the afterglow of the second to last episode of DHW! (el desperado esposa de la casa) and what an episode it was! i cant wait for next week because desperate housewives is my life! i live for them and really, i want that pharmacist! ha my dog came today shes so cute rylie is her name. i love her more than the pharmacist! well that is it for today i shall update with more at a later time.
FARWELL

i hattte waiting.

Sat, 14 May 2005 18:15:03 GMT

so this weekend has been long awaited. i fucked so many things up this week its unbeleiveable and im just barely getting by. but next week ill get it all together i think. so yes work softball and school has taken control of my life. i really have no life. last night was the first time ive hung out with my friends in about two weeks and i definately fell asleep in the car--twice. so I don't even know where I am right now. i just need to get it together. I can't even stay up late enough to do everything that i need to do. I need that time, and i don't even get that anymore wich makes me feel like a bad person and friend, because it affects me to, and i feel like its my fault. it means a lot to me. i just need to get it together. but besides that everything is okay. i just can't wait for summer. zatarians. im so excited. wowwowwow! I want to drive and listen to music and just have fun. its been a while. Ive learned so much this year. i don't know why im getting into this haha but i just can't wait.blub

Sun, 01 May 2005 23:08:57 GMT

get your booty on teh ass floor
im at chelseys house and we are watching the telivision

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 02:36:17 GMT

wow things have been so busy lately. i don't really know what to do. sometimes i feel like i loose touch with everything. Its funny how its teh things you least expect that end up happening. softball has been crazy. im so glad that the games were cancelled today. I mean sometimes i stand there in the field and feel like i am just going to fall over. ha. its kind of pathetic but what are you gonna do. so school. yeah school could be better i have no time. and all these thigns to do. ha. wow. alright im out.

nlub :)

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 02:03:14 GMT

im going to start updating this more often i know everyone is pretty estatic about this. try to contain yourself folks ha.today was my second day at work. a and w ya'll! lol come visit me its slow lately. well im at chelseys house we are listning to the disney soundtrack and eating cereal.
well...ha i know this has been thrilling but ill update toamrw haha
<3 ya'll -rach-

If this is what it takes for me to lie in my mistakes...

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 02:20:59 GMT

sick never again will i eat peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. im so sick of them.

nlub

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 00:01:47 GMT

best friends means I pulled the trigger.

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 06:12:02 GMT

straight up what did you plan to learn about this?
about someone else,
when it all falls apart,
strange where were you when we started this thing,
I wish the real world would just stop hasselin me. please don't change please don't change your the only thing that seems to work itself out...

Was his demise so carefully constructed?

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 06:09:08 GMT

today was....hell at first. I got 4 hours of sleep then babysat for like 10 hours. it was hell. but i made it out alive. came home. slept for about...two hours then went over to annas. it was pretty fun. I don't know i just don't feel like me lately. then again.....what am i ever. im just really confused about stuff right now.

                                      Well let's just say I got what I wanted
                                            Cause in the end it’s always the same

and at this point. i don't even want to go to sleep for fear of waking up feeling the same way. wich scares me. a lot.

fuckkkkk

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 06:03:19 GMT

oh no, I see
a spiderweb is tangled up with me
and I lost my head
and thought of all the stupid things I'd said

oh no, what's this?
a spiderweb and I'm caught in the middle
so I turned to run
and thought of all the stupid things I'd done

and I never meant to cause you trouble
and I never never meant to do your wrong
ah, well if I ever caused you trouble
oh no I never meant to do you harm

oh no, I see
a spiderweb and it's me in the middle
so I twist and turn
but here am I in my little bubble

they spun a web for me
they spun a web for me
they spun a web for me

i really just don't get what i did wrong,

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 05:36:47 GMT

I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 04:17:06 GMT

its really okay because i still know deep down. I did this for you. wich is the only thing thats really getting me through.

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 20:34:00 GMT

I feel so stupid.

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 03:30:21 GMT

well it was a half day. and thats pretty much all i have to say.

...my rhyming skills amaze me.

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 17:39:32 GMT

yesturday, I was In chelsea michigan...enough said haha.

It was fun...different...but fun haha It felt like we were in another state becuase it was just so far out from like....civilization.

there will be pictures later.

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 01:05:09 GMT

yeah. im sorry.

freeking fun break. damn

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 21:18:45 GMT

so yeah break was good now its back to reality though.

In our short film a love disgrace
Dream a scene to brighten face
In our short years
We come a long way
To treat it bad just to throw it away

I want you to be free
Don't worry about me
And just like the movies
We play out our last scene
You won't cry I won't scream

but yeah anyways. fun break.

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 22:42:01 GMT

So you lost your trust, And you never should have, you never should have, But don't break your back, If you ever see this, Don't answer that. In a bullet proof vest, With the windows all closed, I'll be doing my best, I'll see you soon, In a telescope lens, And when all you want is friends, I'll see you soon. So they came for you, They came snapping at your heels, They come snapping at you heels, But don't break your back, If you ever see this, Don't answer that. In a bullet proof vest, With the windows all closed, I'll be doing my best, I'll see you soon, In a telescope lens, And when all you want is friends, I'll see you soon, I'll see you soon. I know you lost your trust, I know you lost your trust, Don't lose your trust, I know you lost your trust.

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 05:23:05 GMT

tonight was fun.

its THURSDAY sluts

Fri, 11 Feb 2005 01:38:48 GMT

so today wasn't teh BEST day ever but ya know what. to hell with today because today is effing thursday okay. holler.

thursday rules/ i can't wait for friday and sat and sunday and monday and tuesday and thursday and friday and saturday BUT i can DEFINATELY wait untill sunday. and monday. because sunday sucks beause then you have to go to school on monday and then the rewst of that week will suck too...until spring break so yeah im cool im cool im down. alright.

alright well im going to sotp this now.

Its not like I think about this constantly...
so maybe I do.....

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 21:44:23 GMT

i will breathe in a moment,
as long as I keep my distance
i wouldn't wanna go messing anything up

Sat, 05 Feb 2005 23:18:06 GMT

hey well right now im at chelseys house, we are playing with her baby cousin and contemplating what to do tonight...maybe national but not sure yet. so yeah yesturday was teh seventies dance and it was...not fun for me at all for a lot of reasons but mainly because i had to be tehre for a grade. after the dance I just kind of came home and did nothing watched tv and...layed around.

" due for a miracle,
"waiting for a sign"

you know how we do.

haha don't you hate it when semi trucks come on your street in the late hours of the night and won't stop shifting their gears. casue I do.

so...basically I have the best fucking friends in the world.

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 01:56:49 GMT

wow you guys....i love you guys so much and I don't know what I would do without you.

So today I was sitting around just thinking and with everything that happened last night, I realized that through the grades, teachers, test scores, basketball games, nights in birmingham EVERYTHING that has and will happen in highschool, its you guys that I'm going to remember. I love you guys so much. <3

so wow thanks to everyone who came last night i love ya'll!!! ~rach

there was a lot of people who aren't "pictured" but i had troubles with my scanner sorry!

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 01:01:47 GMT

fuck.

ashannnntiiiiiii!

Fri, 28 Jan 2005 02:21:52 GMT

today was better than expected. me and chelsey are joining teh step team. so uh...keep ya eyes open we won't be hard to miss cause we will definately be the onllllly white girls on the team. and we will probably suck too. so we definately won't be hard to miss. but ha anyways. school is going pretty good. even though i kind of ditched my seminar retake appointment.i think ill live ha. tomaorw should be good. I feel like dancing. pg.
love ya much.
~rach

oh and melli! i love you. cheer up. and call me if you need to sometime k?